2.26.08

Today's workout can be looked at two ways. OK, one way: I failed. On the other hand, I pushed myself very hard and did a lot of work, work that'll help me attain my goals. But the bottom line is I failed to achieve my goal of running 2 miles straight, and for that, I punished myself.

Bike 1 mile, <4min
.25 @ 4mph
1.5 @ 5.8mph
I just couldn't convince myself to go any further. I had a million excuses in my brain, and in a weak moment, lowered the speed back to my recovery walking speed.
.25 @ 3.5mph
During my walk I had enough time to think about how disappointed in myself I was. I gave up with the finish line in sight. Bullshit. I wouldn't accept that from anyone else, why did I let myself stop? I decided to get the last 2 laps in a harder fashion, with intervals.
.25 @ 6.5
This is faster...but felt better. It's like I can actually stride. Hmm. Hard, yes, but not as hard as I thought it'd be.
.25 @ 3.5
Recovery, heart rate quickly falls back into high 130's. One more to make up for my last lap that I should have ran.
.25 @ 6.5mph
Nice. It's tough, but doable.
.25 @ 3.5
Bullshit. Running straight through would have been harder. This is pussy shit. Punish yourself, you pansy.
.25 @ 7.0
This is more like it! Ouch, ouch, ouch. Heart rate hit 180.
.25 @ 3.5
OK...if my HR goes back to 130's, I'm doing another 400m. 139? Crap.
.25 @ 6.5
Knees, shins, everything starting to hurt. This is good enough.
.25 @ 3.5
Total 4 miles, 49 minutes, avg HR 156, Peak HR 180.
1.5m stats - avg HR 165, Peak HR 174

Mixed emotions, but overall, I think I did the right thing. Squats tomorrow are gonna be tough. I really prefer this style to grinding out the long run.